I'd look at the pictures of Victoria Beckham for hours and hours - those stick-thin legs and jutting collar bones.
‘Doesn’t she look amazing’ I’d think. I was just 13 at the time but I’d pinned a picture of my head on to Posh’s body.
It was my inspiration – what I could look like if I could just stop eating for long enough.
That picture hadn’t been airbrushed but for anyone in doubt about whether photos of celebrities affect the way teenage girls think, I am living proof (though only just living).
For four years I starved myself to look like Victoria and my other idol Nicole Richie. Anorexia came to rule my life and messed me up so much I even tried to kill myself three times…